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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.


2003.01.09 9:05 p.m.

so my mum asked me 'what's changed since you were so depressed?'. and the best thing i could think of were my friends. more specifically new friends and best old friends. me and mattdean not fighting makes me happy. alyssa and humpty's makes me happy. kathy makes thing okay a lot of the time. and crushes see. and fraser makes me happy just to think about. wow, that sounds creepy. i'm glad we're at the point where i love fraser more than he loves me. it makes me feel weird. but silly. even work friends are great, andrea, janel, nicole, etc...etc... (this all reminds me of mattdean's entry.)

and i'm not brilliant. but i'm okay, and considering settling for a while. allowing myself to buy things that i like, and decorate my room. not pressure myself too much about doing things. that's another thing that's better. not apply to college. not working retail christmas. having a day off. or several even!

la la la la la la la

i still hate a lot of dumb shit though. like body shop minimum wage. FAIR TRADE MY FUCKING ASSSSSSSSSSSS .

(she's addicted to nicotine patches, she's afraid of a light in the dark.)

i'm just so tired these days. and my head always hurts.

i just might buy a computer. and everything good that goes along with it.

and some new clothes. ha. that would just prove me....something.

i have another day off tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have too many things to do tomorrow. but i don't have to do anything. ha.

it's okay, just so's you know. it's okay.

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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