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2003.12.13 12:30 a.m.

less than two weeks until christmas. i'm starting to feel stressed. not so much because of christmas but because of what comes after christmas. ahg. there is so much freaking stuff that needs to be done. i can't even think about it.

i bought a couple more presents yesterday. i'm slowly inching towards done. i also bought myself a cd. the flashing lights. it's sooo good and fun. i've been listening to a lot of mp3s of theirs, but i couldn't find that many. it was worth it. i have to stop buying things for me. but i won't!

i went for lunch with ashley yesterday (amy had to drive to winnipeg with her father to return a semi). we went to the freehouse (two days in a row!), i had really good spring rolls, and she had a salad. both of the twins always go on about how fat they are and don't touch my fat, and the worst was from amy about how she'd never let anyone see her fat. it's quite quite terrible. i don't know how exactly this happened. neither one of them is at all over weight. at all. so ashley's stopped eating mostly, but talks about it so much. i don't know how to respond at all. i know that it sucks to feel bad about your body (the current standard size in film is 0)...but there's not really anything i can say that will change what she thinks.

we wandered around downtown a little two. i haven't walked anywhere in a long time. that's what winter and having a car will do for you. it felt good to be outside. i'm looking forward to that in toronto.

work at the bay yesterday was insane. holy god. i had to stay almost a half hour late, and i didn't get a break at all. customer appreciation day, use your hbc credit card and save an additional 10%. people are insane about discounts. i actually didn't notice it was nine until the lights started dimming. i got payed lots though i hope. oh money. how i need you. there's people i really like at work. and i like liking them. it's nice to have people to wave to and exchange pleasantries. and i'm never ever crude there. that's funny. they don't know me at all.

mum's scared i'm going to die in the street. because i am! i'm terrible at doing things and getting things ready. ho-lo i'm going to die!

i didn't end up getting to see despistados. a little sad..but. it was completely at capacity and i didn't feel like waiting around. niki came out and was in a terrible mood so we decided to leave. i went in to say that i wasn't staying. ryan pollard humped me a lot from behind and 3 people made fun of my touque-hat. mehta touched the fuzzy letters on my shirt (which are awkwardly located). ha that three minutes was fun. despistados are playing again tonight with other people, i'd go if i had anyone to go with..but it might just take too much effort.

niki and i went to broadway and had scones at the living room. she made fun of how i tell everyone everything, which is soooo true. unless i'm directed otherwise. it's partly because i find everything so amusing and i want everyone else to too. and partly because i have a big fat mouth. ha.

we went and found niki's mum at the wash n slosh (where she was seeing the band 'eating out mary') to get the keys to the rental house where we'll party). she's so nice. one time she let me borrow her car to take my driver's test. we went the house, which is quite good and perfect for the going away/birthday/christmas party. and there might be a tiny bit of room for bands. fun! so book off the 28th so that you can come. and think of something good to bring to the potluck. and you might want to bring pillows to sit on because there's no furniture. oh i'm excited. and everyone's invited. i mean, everyone i know who won't wreck niki's house. this means you family and you boogity and your virago if she's here and not my brother.

i have to work some more tonight and tomorrow. and there's a potluck for all pos staff that i might go to. but i don't know, i didn't sign up for it, so it might be too late. and then i'm going to jazz. i'm really going to miss jazz. i was so sad there wasn't any hiphop last night too, that would have been perfect. but anyways, niki's coming, and ryan pollard maybe, and maybe dan and steve and maybe j'anal (janel haha). it could be funnn.

i should go get some stuff done, my horoscope said to get moving, and that i should make lists in order to accomplish everything. i just want to read a book.

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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