note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

.

2003.09.25 6:54 p.m.

i'm hating work these days. beyond hate actually. i'm feeling trapped. in a horrible way. today was worst because it wasn't very much fun at all and then paul told me i'm scheduled to work four 10-7 shifts next week. i'm going to shoot someone. i don't want to be a huge bitch. and i don't want to be manipulative and use ultimatums, but i can't work 10 to 7. it is the worst shift in the world. i hate it. it starts with a rush and ends with a rush, and in between there are hours of nothing. nothing. motherfucker. i hate evening people. 10to7 ruins your day. there's no time to do anything before your shift and not really time to do anything after. i couldn't get another job (as i'd been thinking about). and travis and i are supposed to start rehearsals for our play..when would i have time for that? i haven't worked past 5 in over 6 months i'd say, probably more. why do they think they can just schedule that..without even consulting me.. the only reason i still work there is that i get the hours that i want, and the days off i need. i don't want to leave helen, but i can't work those shifts. i will give my two weeks notice if i can't get word that i won't ever have to work them again. it seems like i'm over-reacting, i know, but i already hate it there, i already give them more than they deserve for the amount they're paying me. i just want out of it. i want none of it to be my problem anymore.

i'm trapped because i need money though. and the security of a fulltime job. and i need to go places and save for things.

the only solution i see is stealing all the money i have access to at jerry's and heading for mexico.

.

but travis and i have started work on our plays though. well, started really thinking about it at least. i'm going to look over some plays he likes tonight, and tomorrow we're planning to go look for some more. this could be pretty fun. i hope we can get it up for early december though. i guess we might need a cast. and maybe a director. and other help. if you're interested you should let me know.

.

i ended up going to bed last night instead of going out. because i'm a jerk. erin went to break dancing and said it was really fun. but i don't regret not going..i'm too apathetic.

.

i wonder if my cousin will change her name back to our last name. i'll ask her.

.

we're going to winnipeg next weekend. i can't wait. though they might have scheduled me to work late on friday. in which case i will tell them to suck it and then i will kick them, and beat down their moms. and get out of it.

.

(and i give myself three days to feel better, or else i'll drive it off a fucking cliff.)

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

diarylanded oldered profiled emailed
guestbooked noted surveyed surveyed2 pictured

myspaced