disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.
note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.
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2004.01.18 4:47 p.m.
this life is strange.
walking along the harborfront yesterday we had to stop and take it all in. and we couldn't. the harborfront is where you can see for miles and miles..it's just water, and then an island..but still. it's the closest thing they have to the prairies here. i starting to know about claustrophobia (even if i can't spell it).
but it's good. finished a week of school. have lots of homework, that i'm not even avoiding! i just need to re-copy out a voice paper and then i'm done. i hope.
i have lots of anxiety dreams where i miss class/ forget things/ upset people. but i've always been big into the anxiety dreams whenever i'm slightly worried about something.
even when i think i'm not particularly homesick, my dreams bring it all back. it's good though. in a way.
even when i don't think of certain boys, they turn up in my dreams.
it's cold! and there's so much slush! it's intense and great.
last night walking through little italy, linking arms with great people, i thought (as always) this is my youth. and it's fabulous. even conflict is fabulous, it just is. something new something different. interesting.
yes last night was pretty fun. i met chala and priscilla's friend cameron. he's in the jazz program at humber, school buddy. he's very sweet, open, and truthful. i think probably all girls he knows have crushes on him, but he wouldn't even really notice. we went to a neat restaurant in little italy called 'utopia'. and it was. i had vegetarian poutine! it was exciting for me. and we went for good coffees after too. walked home with chris on one arm and cameron on the other. chala and priscilla running and screaming and laughing up ahead. sat around in the kitchen until after 2 am. prettypretty.
went to an audition for a couple student films yesterday with chala. we made a non-jealously/irrationality pact. best plan ever. i feel that i went through my jealously of chala phase, and can now move on. and she says she has been jealous/intimidated by me, but is done with that as well. i don't think much will come of these auditions, but at this point, everything is great just for the experience.
i need to get a job. soon. before death on the streets takes over. but i can't explain how good no job feels. mmm.
it feels like this
is how it should be.
previously - and then
*oh random entry*
all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15
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