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2004.04.20 4.20a.m.

4.20.

and actually, i really really want some pot. i can't even explain. i just want to lie around by myself eating and not moving.

that's depressing.

yesterday i wrote quite a long entry, emcompassing all the wonderful things that have been going on. and then the power went off all over campus and deleted it! fun! there was a large collective yell of profanities in the computer lab. kind of funny.

lots of things have been happening.

i did get to go see a northern chorus this weekend. priscilla and mr. bench came with me. i quite quite liked it. they played with the parkas (kind of good..but too much(?)), and raising the fawn (good, really good). i didn't really talk to any of the band members..but there'll be other times. i did buy a pretty t-shirt though. a northern chorus has good taste in art. their album cover is gorgeous. you can visit their website.

there was a boy there who was drawing everyone. quite well too, from what i glimpsed. i thought that was quite cool. i was going to talk to him but he looked a little too much like jeffmorton.

i started work this weekend. it was good. far better than i'd suspected. it will only get worse though i fear. it was so slow, so me and sarah just stood around eating ice cream and talking about boys. i like that. sarah's quite sweet, i like working with good people. i have to find some music to bring in to listen to..the radio is already driving me insane.

i went to see the 3rd-year-theatre kids' vocal masques yesterday. i had to leave part way through because i had a headache and was tooo tired. but what i saw was really good. i'm excited to do my vocal masque this summer. i want it to be super fantastic. i had a good talk with some 1st-year-theatre kids on the bus home. they said their class was terrible in first semester too, but that they mostly smartened up in second. i hope so.

today i got called 'brainiac' by two different people. and it's only 10 in the morning. i have a feeling this day can only get worse.

or better!

i did my final monologue for paul's class yesterday. it went okay. not earth-shattering..but interesting none the less, i'll be glad (or sad) to get feed back on it on friday.

damon's monologue ended up really really upsetting me. i ran out of the room crying. how grade two! but, well..you know. it was too close to things that i'm trying to deal with right now. good thing i talked to paul already, so i didn't need to explain it. when i ran out i went to the bathroom to cry in a stall for a bit. this woman, florence, who teaches chi kung to the theatre kids saw me go in and waited for me to see if i was okay. she was so sweet. she aligned my posture so i could cry easier and held my back and took care of me. it's funny when people who don't know you at all can come in and say things from a new prospective. she was really great. and paul didn't say anything about it, which i really appreciated. it's harder to be strong when people are being overly-nice.

i have an appointment with a counsellor tomorrow.

it was so windy yesterday! i think it's that big lake that does it. i almost fell over a couple of times. it was brilliant. i made a new friend based on the weather. he's pretty cute..but also attached i think. none the less, a sweet boy.

i'm depressive. that's irritating and just makes me more depressive. i'm tired of thinking. i'm up and down and never medium. i laugh and cry in the same minute.

i'm going to be at the school late almost every night this week. there's so many year end performances. and the one night i won't be here, i'll probably be at the another blue door show.

internet diaries are annoying.

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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