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2002.10.23 10:44 p.m.

i'll make a new attempt to keep this diary upbeat. bad enough to lose all telephone and in-person communication with everyone, but now i don't even email, or get emails, or anything. ~shock~!!!!

i'm super excited about hallowe'en. i'm going to dress up like an elf. i hope, if i can get all the stuff i need. like ears. oh, man, my ears are going to be super cool.

i ate super with courtney and caroline today. felt that i got a good deal on my meal. $3 for a salad and garlic toast. i have soooo much money. not that i can do anything with it. have to save up for a super-brilliant college adventure. or some other junk.

at least i have to work for my college. some people i know have everything paid for long before they go. how are they going to learn anything about life? i mean, at least i really understand the value of money. i'm lucky. i guess.

things are good. i'm going to hang out with travis and then courtney. me and andrea have like eight things planned. a my so-called life party for one. maybe kristin will come. i'm going to start hanging out with shawna too. and hillary of course. as soon as i'm nineteen i can go to the bar with her and danica and their punk kids. i'd really like that i think. i mean, if i'm still living here.

work today was really fun. it went by so quickly. me and andrea just talked a lot of it. but got alot of the store changing-around done. good and productive. i even got home 45 minutes after we closed, on the transit system!

i'm feeling so much healthier these days. just settling you know.....physically and emotionally. i think i'm just being over-emotional about everything. it doesn't really matter. i don't have to love everyone as feircly. i am just learning how to let go. it doesn't matter really.....right?

i might go work at jerry's tomorrow. i think that'd be fun. just for five hours in the evening. and i'd get a meal on discount probably. $35, it's probably worth it. and the evening staff can be really fun to work with. give me a chance to get to know them i guess.

i have so many ideas for christmas. i'm excited about all the presents. and the decorations. my wishlist is like a mile long though, i'm totally selfish. but on the other hand, i really do have so much of what i need.

i think i'd be really contented to stay here for another year. just settle into a routine.

yeah, probably.

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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