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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.


2005.04.11 3:04 p.m.

you know who i adore? james reimer. i mean, now that i've written that he'll write something awful to me, but still.
anyway, he linked me to this site of mitch hedburg quotes. john, you especially will want to go there. also, everyone.

i hate an unproductive, uneventful, borefestival weekend.
it was fine.

i had a bad headache the entire time though. that was not hot. at all.
today's the first time that i haven't had a headache (yet) in awhile. blast!

friday was fun. improv class was sweet. i stayed for both. allan told a hilarious story about trying to get a girl eaten by sharks. me and erica did a hilarious scene.
etc etc.

school is still ass. but if i would get a job i'd bet i'd feel a lot better about life.

le sigh.

i don't know how things are with nick and i. fine i suppose. he's so laid-back it's incredibly hard to tell. i think that things are gradually falling apart.
as they are wont to do.
actually it's probably just that i'm nervous and scared. i find it incredibly hard to commit to someone, and it's really hard to get to an even reciprocation level. i just feel unsure. which isn't my favorite and then my impulse is just to get the hell out before it gets worse. and i end up hurt.
relationships are hard though. really. especially because of how i, especially, get incredibly attached to everything. i easily get used to patterns and surroundings and want to keep things that way.
i get attached to people's families and friends and houses and pets and belongings and routines.
it's scary to spend time getting attached and comfortable and have it all fall away.

wow, i should go write this somewhere else.

went to constantines and weakerthans on friday. constantines were very good. rockedout and seemed to really enjoy it. priscilla was sick and very very tired and i had a horrible headache. we were not happy campers. we left just into the weakerthans set. i was upset about new band members and i hate change (and i get attached to specific things: see above).
priscilla went home and i went by the markinside/anotherbluedoor show. i found nathan first and talked to him breifly, he asked if i was seeing anyone and i said yeah, and he said, oh too bad because i was going to hit on you.
what an ass. seriously, boys who put in no effort are pretty ridiculous.
then i found nick and we hung out. and went home eventually.
i didn't talk to the marks at all because they were all on stage the whole time i was there. i hope they are well.

i ran into isla at the constantines and she said she and chris are breaking up. big news in themarkinside world.

i really didn't do much this weekend.
watched a lot of tv.

mulholland dr. is stupid. why does it just stop making sense all of a sudden? can someone explain it to me?

i'm trying to decide what to do about my agent situation and if i should ask paula to try and get me stuff here, or if i should wait to get going on everything until the end of school.
i'm so bored though and i just want to feel like i'm moving...

chala's commercial is on now apparantly, so you can look for it.

holy god mitch hedburg is so funny. i wish i had borne his children and then i'd have the funniest babies ever.

i'm now watching video clips of him.

i worked out today.
what the hell?

i play sports, wait, no i don't. what the fuck?

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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