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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2003.06.20 4:13 p.m.

i'd settle for a cup of coffee. but you know what i really need.

i was so sick at work yesterday. but i couldn't go home because michelle was sicker. i went to sleep when i got home by accident. and was severly late to get my make up done.

i was modeling for amy's final for her make up class at marca. i was so tired. and i kept almost falling asleep. the girl doing make up next to us was so much like brea curtis. it was so odd. anything involving brea curtis in my mind is odd. i mean, we really shouldn't dislike eachother. i mean, i don't know her. i feel bad.

none the less i looked gorgeous. my make-up was almost identical to how she'd done it for the fashion show. speaking of, here's some pictures from said fashion show:

i'm so creepy. and beautiful.

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i've been working too much. i'm going to fall over. i've been in the worst moods lately. i think it's an accumulation of everything, and not one thing in particular. except maybe work. but i don't really see a way around that.

i'm fine just so long as i'm not thinking about anything, and making a joke. as long as i'm making a joke i am fine. or watching tv or interneting, or sleeping. as soon as i stop to think i want to cry for years. i don't know how to feel better.

i want to go to sleep again. enough thinking. i wish i were going to moneen, but i don't think i am. i wish i were seeing jamie, but he's working. i wish i didn't have to be at work at 5:15 tomorrow morning.

i'm tired of wanting. i need to know what i'm doing.

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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