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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2002-01-11 3:49 a.m.

i wanted a band.

i think i will still start one. there are so many ways to love someone and care about someone. and i've been thinking so much about all of this.

i've been thinking about alisin. i want to kick her so hard. i don't know what to think of her. i don't think any of us do. i still love her.

i've been thinking about a boy that i have chemistry with. apparantly it's obvious. i'm not sure if i miss being with him. but we do have chemistry. and it was a time. (a brilliant time. and close.) he has drifted further from me as of late. he has a non-chemistry girlfriend. which is important. (for everyone). i'm happy with all of this, i don't know if i ever make myself clear about anything.

i've been thinking about the ugly green toad. (oh god so beautiful and everything....) i don't know whether i should visit him. i never know. i always go when he's in the hospital. i told him that i would always be there for him and i meant it with every pore. i don't know if he needs me now. (he probably needs everyone).

i hate it so fucking much when people talk about him. (it is so rarely positive)

it's so late. i am increasingly more incoherent.

thinking

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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