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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2003.05.06 11:15 p.m.

jerry finally cut off all his hair. he looks decent now. and by decent i mean hot. very very hot.

working at jerry's all the time is a little strange. especially because of all the new people that are starting. i am constantly dealing with people who i don't know. it's an interesting oportunity to ask people what their first impressions of me were. especially because i don't really care. and it's interesting to observe myself finding new ways of interacting.

people's eating habits are amazing. i notice this a lot because of working at jerry's. but today courtney was telling me about how she eats crinkle-cut french fries for three meals a day. dipped in ketchup? no. mayonaise!.. fuck. and for snacks she has chocolate bars or cookies. i am in disbelief.

i have been won over by the 'Ice Cream Revolution'. today brad introduced me to the vegan soy-based ice cream and it was good! excellent. now all you animal lovers have a nice summer treat. well, if you can bear the grossness of jerry's to get it.

i watched some episodes of the family guy at courtney's, man are those people ever clever. and i gave her a henna tatoo. it was pretty fun. if you like that sort of thing.

oh and we went to the mendel. i should not be allowed in art galleries. they are so obviously too deep for me. i saw a cate francis picture though. there was this artsy couple looking throught the same room as us and making such...artistic (pretentious) comments about the art. "he has used such a strong solid shape in the foreground of all of these works. even in this one here, see? but they are all curved, some right over..." me to courtney very quietly "it's to signify his impotency." somehow penis jokes are funnier when they have to be said undercover.

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it's hard to try and see the good in everyone, and try and ammend things with people i'm at odds with.
it's far far worse to miss people than to dislike them.
then i want to see them, i feel bad for what i've said/done/even felt. and i feel left out.
i'm bored of feeling left out.
i irritated myself because i'm never happy enough with a memory. i think, if it was possible then, it's possible now. i want to re-create everything. to hold it all again.

or at least some of it...

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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