disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.
note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.
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2004.07.22 1:41 p.m.
okay, i've uploaded some new pictures!!! (i'm in love with digital cameras) it's the same page as before, so go have another look. new additions include some hot humping ones, kissing, and some teachers. wink.
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i stayed in again last night. i'm so proud of myself, especially since it was mod night at the lava lounge. le sigh. i did work on my vocal masque though, which is coming together quite nicely. surprisingly enough.
i have a tutorial right away and i'm going to talk to paul about everything.
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i'm very explosive today. either extremely up or extremely down. i spend parts of voice class hysterically laughing and parts trying not to cry. the ridiculousness increases. i'm just trying to hold it all together. enough to work at least. it's fucking hard. it's hard to explain how difficult this all is.
in a strange way.
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neil yelled at me this morning for being loud in a high-pitched voice. i wanted to tell him to shut the hell up. all the teachers are constantly contradicting themselves and each other. one minute paul's like 'whatever comes out of your mouth is your natural voice' and the next he's like 'don't go out of your range'. it's starting to feel a little like bullshit. and i mean, i was excited. my voice got high because i was excited. and i'm not sure it wasn't supported quite frankly. and then neil got mad at me for laughing high-pitchedly..like i could stop that! motherfuck.
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i'm ornery.
and hornery.
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i have to work tonight and i desperately don't want to. but i also desperately need money. it's too fucking hot out today. in a smog way. i hate smog. my lungs hurt.
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is jm's jazz singer still on canadian idol? is canadian idol in toronto? does anyone else find the one guy with the side lip peircing oddly hot?
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i hope the tutorial goes well, i have a feeling i'll just be crying a lot. that sucks..although i would like to have a hysterical cry soon,
i feel it building.
previously - and then
*oh random entry*
all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15
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