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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

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2004.07.26 4:06 p.m.

i never seem to have time for internetting. i always have too much to do, but i also am always managing to avoid doing what i should be doing. in a hot way.

i probably have a dinner party tonight. with chala, scott porch and daryl porch again. it'll be three mondays in a row if it actually works out. that's amazing. how often do people actually go through with plans? not enough i say.

i did a lot of sleeping this weekend. in a fun way. it was badly needed.

i was going to go to priscilla's dinner party on friday but it just didn't happen. (kind of like how ali was going to go to the weakerthans with me..but then that didn't happen. i was a little mad i have to know.)

i was on my way to priscilla's but i was in such a bad mood so i stopped by the porch. scott and daryl have this tendancy to be able to cheer me up..i'm not really sure why exactly, especially since most people just irritate the crap out of me when i'm down. so i just stayed there for a bit..and then i went home instead of continuing one to priscilla's. i'm lame.

i worked on saturday, which was fine because it was with miranda, and i really don't see her enough these days. and scott came by and had a milkshake, which he immediately got on his face (because he's the messiest kid ever)..who gets milkshake on their face? (oh except that time when i was little and i managed to pour almost half a milkshake all over my face + hair + dress..)

after work miranda and i went to utopia with scott. it was nice. and scott didn't really hit on miranda, which was nice because it makes me mad. because i'm a selfish slut. and i like scott. a little.

i went to whitby with geordie on saturday night. it was fun at first and then sunday it was just pretty bad. i can't really explain why..but it cemented the fact that we just aren't meant to be together. at least not in the long haul. but he's done camp on the 14 or so, right when i finish up school..and he thinks we're going to hang out lots after that until i go home (so fucking soon..). we'll see.

i had a dream about scott while sleeping next to geordie. if geordie hadn't been somewhat of a jerk i might feel slightly bad... i don't really know what to do about the scott thing. i don't know if i like him just because he doesn't like me..or if i actually do.. and i don't know how he'll react if i say anything.. yeah, i wish i wasn't so strange. and was less socially awkward.

and i wish i'd seen the weakerthans. bah ali baaaahhh.

i'm worried about coming home. i'm worried about seeing people again. especially certain people. i feel like i should have gotten much much hotter and grown-up and hipper and everything. like if i'm not gigantically changed then it'll be disapointing. i feel like i have something to prove. that's interesting. and irritating.

i have gained weight though!!!!! we all like to hear that. i wish i was still the kind of person who didn't care. fuck. what's happening to me? it's not like it even matters. oh except for in terms of being attractive to boys and in terms of my career. fucker.

i finished my giant comm report this morning. just barely in time. i had to run to give it to her before she left. i'm too funny. and by funny i mean bad at school. not i only have ten billion other projects to get done by end of term. it's only like two weeks left! how strange. i'm almost half done my college career.

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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