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2002-03-14 11:52 p.m.

so people came. and had chai tea and ginger squares. we made horrid horrid jokes and brilliant ones too. it was quite well worth it...quite. i wish i had knives to sell them.

but i didn't.

and aaron called when everyone was being loud. and i told him i'd try this so-called job. try it. for a week. and he asked me to go for coffee with him, but i couldn't because there were so many people in my living room.

and because i'm not quite sure. about anything. this job. this boy. this anything. although i do find him attractive. i find another boy more attractive. which is strange.

i remind aaron of his ex-girlfriend. (who he's not quite over i don't think.) is this as horrible as it is stereotypically? i mean...jeffmorton reminded me of alvin. to a degree.       but it seems like we're often attracted to the same kinds of people. i don't where the line gets drawn.

i don't know, kids. and i am always over-analysing things. till they're dead.

i like sad-eyed hippie boys...with guitars and paintings...

and that is the opposite of aaron. opposite.

so i'm going to work tomorrow. i guess i'll see how it goes. i am worked up about it. which hasn't happened in awhile. i have been serene.

good lord...and i've been thinking a lot more about open relationships. but i don't know any boys who'd even consider it.       i think aaron may be needy. and...something......

fuck me. i should stop talking about this. could someone please fix this?

(and what if he isn't actually attracted to me at all? and we're just friends...and i don't know anything?) more talking about boys. surprise.

previously - and then

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
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