disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.
note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.
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2002.11.19 10:22 p.m.
#2
it'd be fine if i was at least a neat jackass. but i'm not. i'm just really irratating.
and this going red has got to stop. i've always been a huge blusher. just blush blush blush blush blush. all the time. most frequently at boys, but also at girls, most of the time it has nothing to do with me being embarased. more just nervous or something. and cute boys are THE WORST. stupid cute boys. but i'd basically stopped in grade 12 and last year, just not as much, and for different reasons, but since that month or two when i was alone a lot and forgot how to interact with people and went crazy, it's been as bad as eighth grade. or worse. it's getting insane. i blush at kids on the bus, i blush at people when they pay attention to. the mere mention of constantine sends me rubbing my face. not to mention jeremy. ai.
i went to moxies tonight with the body shoppers and on my way out i saw taylor and i went to say hi and just as i get to the table i notice that one of the boys with him is blair (ie: i have a cush on him, he's hillary's friend, the one with the commerce degree and the button that says 'cheer up emo kid'.).blush blush blush i couldn't even stay to say anything really, i just left cause i was so red. and the more i think about it the redder i get. i'm going to shoot myself.
actually i want to get a pin that says either 'i blush. all the time' (or some variation) or 'just because i'm blushing doesn't mean i'm thinking dirty thoughts about you'. does anyone have a button-maker?
fraser, when are we going to watch amelie? i'm working until nine every night this week(-sat), so this weekend, or next monday?
i have to go blush some more.
previously - and then
*oh random entry*
all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15
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