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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2003.04.21 5:01 p.m.

i got back saturday late night, but diaryland and my computer have conspired to not let me update. though i've tried. if you're reading this right now, it's a miracle.

but in attempting to write diary entries that get wrecked, i've exhausted any desire to write about anything. sigh. so i was in edmonton this week...to have adventures and visit my aunt. i stayed with her in her apartment. it was really swell, as she just lets me do my thing. and her apartment is so nice. for the most part my family has exceedingly good taste, of course, maybe i just think that because i belong to this family. huh.
so i did a lot of shopping while i was there, spent an afternoon on whyte avenue, an afternoon downtown...and i walked around a lotttttt. i bought a lot of neat things, but instead of feeling fulfilled, i mostly feel addicted. so it goes.
the funniest thing i did i think was, at value village i took pictures of myself in various outfits in the dressing room...with the flash..and people were right outside. they must have thought i was crazy! or doing some pornography maybe. hot.
i went to see treble charger in west edmonton mall by myself, got oddly drunk off one beer and wandered around a lot. i talked to both trevor mcgregor (the drummer) and rosie martin (the bassist) after the show. i've been thinking about that a lot, and why talking to rosie made my week...and i've concluded that i fulfilled a goal of mine, which was to talk to someone (semi) famous naturally, like he was an old friend. and it was like that. he just kind of got my sense of humor right off the bat, and we laughed so much. maybe he's just a naturally friend-making kind of a guy. he's also ripped and cut. oh, rosie, so ripped and cut. and they all like converse. too bad they've gone all pop and no rock.
speaking of, i bought ok computer and i've been listening to it obsessively, i've been meaning to buy it for years but it's always been pretty expensive, but it was $10 at hmv. awesome. maybe i'll switch it up a little by putting on pablo honey. or not. i also bought a good billie holiday cd at zellers for $5. pretty good.

being away was one part great, as i had no commitments or anything i had to do. and that i got to go adventure by myself and see my darling aunt.... but it was also rather depressing as i found myself not wanting to come back. at all. i didn't really miss anyone, the first thing i thought to miss was supertruck...it's not that i don't love a bunch of people, it's just that i'm not finding any friendships to be particularly rewarding at this point. maybe rewarding isn't the right word. i'm not finding any friendships to be simple and making sense right now. most of my friendships don't feel 'right'. i can be such a huge jerk. and when i'm not feeling as jerkish anymore, i regret a lot of things. i've never been very good at having friends. i've said that before, but it's pretty true.

sorry you there.

in edmonton i became addicted to sex and the city, and i am now in withdrawal. it's really funny and good. i want to be like them. but i want to be like everybody and everything i see.. ow. this green kool-aid tastes like crap.

i'm going to move away....

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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