disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.
note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.
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2002-03-25 11:00 p.m.
what if i'm too scared to do it? to move away and leave everyone and everything? i am a coward. and i'll just keep saying, i'll stay just for this summer, just for this autumn, just for christmas. and i'll never never leave.
i want to go apply for a job tomorrow at various locations. then i'll get a job here and never do anything else. because it'll be easy to stay. i always put things off and never ever do them.
somebody make me accomplish something.
both clint and chala might go to u of vic next year. that'd be be neat for them. if alisin and matt end up in the same city they're going to live together.
and i don't want to miss out on any of this. this past year i've seen alisinn and matt and fraser just get better and better and better. just grow so much. and i don't want to miss it. i want to keep knowing them. i want to know them even better. i hate losing people so much. beyond anything. except maybe losing a dream, hey? i don't want to lose my dreams. i don't want to lose anything. ever.
i guess that kind of makes sense.
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those of you who haven't taken my friendtest should do so. soon. soon soon.
i'm glad to have this week away from having to do anything about my aaron situation. i think it says a lot that i haven't come up with a nickname for him on here. if it was so important than i would have. fer shur.
i don't want to lose any of this.
previously - and then
*oh random entry*
all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15
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