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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

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2004.03.24 5:18 p.m.

hum.....

i have a painful headache. again. someone just punch me. and by punch me, i clearly mean fix my headache. if my mum was here then she'd give me a head massage. because that's what mothers are for. and because it is a sinus headache (i think) and that would help. i'm holding tension in my neck and face quite badly and it's not helping. at all.

i miss my mum. no else hates it quite as much when i bite them. i've decided that she should come here. there's things i don't feel like dealing with at home, so everyone should just come here. all the time. right now.

yesterday classes were long. and today class was long. maybe it's a theme. maybe i just have no patience or work ethic.

after i was done class yesterday i ended up talking to jesse for quite a while. (jesse is the very cute boy in 3rd year theatre who has a girlfriend but is still flirty and friendly. and he has big green eyes and curly brown hair.) holy lick do i like cute boys. but beyond that, it was a helpful and interesting conversation. we talked about our love for used book stores and for reading of all kinds. and about places to live in toronto (he's moving downtown in a few months)..i told him breifly about the problems i've been having in school, and he told me about the problems he's been having.. he said he had this huge epiphany a week or so ago, where he realized that for his whole life he'd let people walk all over him. and then he thought about how much it was hurting him and how much pain and tension he was holding from it. i think it's awesome when people can realize things like that. especially because when i thought about him i thought that he's the kind of cute boy that if i dated i'd break up with quickly because he'd let me walk all over him. and that drives me nuts. so he said he's made changes in the past week that have got him feeling good again, and feeling free and growing. i've decided that we're friends, because that's what i do. as i was leaving he said that it was great talking to me, and if i ever felt like talking i should find him. i like that. i like when people are vocal about enjoying others. good work team.

jesse had an audition for a semi-big movie today. i was excited for him. i wonder how it went.

i had lunch with another cute boy today. cameron. it was good, though i was almost late for class..which would have sucked hardcore. we went to a thai place near the school that was tiny and delicious. i enjoy cameron, he's funny and honest and so laid-back. and flirty but in a..clueless, open kind of a way. it's funny.

last night was so good. i was going to go to bed but then chala came over and we ended up working on a secret special project until 1. i love chala, if she didn't live here i'd probably shoot myself in the face. but yes. and we sat around drinking hot chocolate and looking at pictures and reading poetry and i was going through my boxes of the most important junk (letters, etc..). it was fulfilling.

i did end up doing karaoke yesterday. by fluke. they had it in the caf, so i sang stay by lisa loeb. it was fine, and by fine i mean bad, but considering that i wasn't drunk, fine.

i'm 20 and three months today. that's big.

cameron is playing jazz tomorrow night. it's an audition to have a regular gig there, i hope he gets it so that i have jazz to go to again. oh ho.

i should probably go home. there's only so much computer a headache can take.

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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