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2004.02.23 9:00 a.m.

(what a time it was, oh what a time. a time of innocence, a time of confidences..)

right after i wrote that last entry i went and had lunch with ali, and things are so much better between us. not that they were bad..just..but yes. we were able to talk about brittany, and how she deals with things brittany does. sometimes it's really helpful to rant to someone who understands, as catty as that may be.

but things are fine really. i should stop over-reacting. or stop pretending that things are fine. ha. either way.

brittany had a migrane for most of the weekend, but that meant quiet and no darren. i'm terrible. and then she was out last night too, so i'm in a better place.

and i bought a phone-thinger so that brittany can't accidentally unplug the answering machine (all the freaking time).

also mum shipped a bunch of stuff from my home so i was terribly excited to recieve that. my vcr, dvd player, sewing machine, my scarves, some ribbons and lace, pictures, art supplies, and one tampon (what the hell?). the good thing about having a vcr is now i have a remote!

saturday was hard though. sometimes the homesickness is enough to make me choke. and the realization that i don't have a real home anymore set in. and i'm coming to the conclusion that i might do almost anything to live alone. it's not about the other person so much as that i need a refuge. i'm so much a homebody (with no home), and i need a place to go and be away from everything.

and it's hard living with someone who has a significant other..whatever slight lonliness you might be feeling is magnified 10 fold by people in your house loving (sex or no sex) each other. especially when it's been so long since you were loved like that. (if ever.)

sunday was better. i went down to front st. to get my packages. i wandered down there for some time, in st. lawrence market..it was very pretty. walking down there made me feel very much like i live in toronto. after i got home i went to the market. got lots of vegetables, lots of pitas (the only thing i ever eat), and a couple of dishes. marketing also makes me feel grounded in the city. in a good and whole way.

i think it's funny that i watch sean erker on tv every week. the show's pretty good actually..i think.

oh! i went out on friday. me and erica went to the after party for the 3rd year theatre people's plays. mostly i just went to hit on jesse. which went fairly well, he kept touching my arm and smiling and aww. in an odd twist, he has the same birthday as jtt (a year younger), which makes him a virgo. which makes him a good match for me. yeah, probably for his girlfriend too. but i also found out that though he is graduating in april, he'll be around all summer doing a shakespeare intensive and combat. fun.

i have to go do warm up for paul's class. i love him. especially when he says 'good work saskatchewan', or when he makes specific jokes for the saskatchewan market. i really hope i don't have anything due in any classes today..i really thought i'd be better at school this time around..

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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