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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2004.02.27 4:34 p.m.

haaaallo.

i'm getting giddy. that's not a good sign. it means at some point in the next few hours i will crash and be sad for hours! especially because i have nothing to do tonight and no one to go out with. but luckily i have things to get done. well, not really, but i could pretend. i have tv to watch, yes that's it. or something.

i'm giddy though. life is funny.

and i have a break coming up. so that's good. right? good. right. ha.

i haven't gone out with (car)nathan yet. varying circumstances..ya know. but maybe i'll see him later. or maaaaybe not. but hopefully at some point because his indie rock connections are awesome. and i want to be friends with (car)steve as well.

ali was telling me that there's lots of band guys that used to come into caban. maybe i should apply there. i love a good indie rocker.

i hate it a boy kisses and you can tell right from the very first kiss that mostly what he wants is sex. right off the bat. what a turnoff. i can't even explain. i wonder if boys know how bad that is? though on the other hand, maybe it's the girl's fault. for begin a cock-tease. no one wants to do that i'm sure.. but how about a little not-pressure. a little soft being-together-ness. is it after a certain age that you don't get to do things slowly anymore? that's it's all about getting it inside of there. and maybe say you missed out on the age where you got to go slowly and figure things out, then when do you get the time?

i do love a cute boy..but fuck guy seriously man. guy.

oh i can joke about it to an extreme..

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i presented a poem today in paul's class. i was absurdly nervous, but it almost worked. i did a section of 'pulse' by ani difranco. and i think i almost had it. it's so difficult to explain all the shit we're doing and every little thing that combines until we get it. terribly interesting though. i'm excited to do my own work over the break, to get into a routine of doing it on my own. i hope.

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people find my diary through weird things. and ego searches are growing in popularity. i have to be careful what i say about who. today i got googled for 'men getting it up the ass' and 'girls sucking cock' and lukeee ryallsssss. (spelt with extra letters to avoid it happening again. good then.)

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email me because i miss and love you. alright then. and then maybe we'll shake it shake it shake it shake it shake it.

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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