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2003.12.31 11:00 a.m.

at this point, after sucessfully stalking three people. that i will marry at certain tv star. haha. just to prove a point.

i'm so dumb. holy god. why would i start this now? how could i not? ack ack ack ack ack.

ohhhh fun. oooohhhh. erg. nothing.

i need a cup of tea. to settle my mind. i need to get ten billion things done. i'm leaving on friday six a.m. and i haven't started packing one little bit. ooh. i'm so screwed. i just don't want to even think about it. at all. i don't want to. i don't want to go.

i want to go.

but also...

i was at constantine's until 5 a.m. i keep using the word 'perfect' to describe things that happen. and i grow weary of the word..but wouldn't change the night at all.

we went to j's for g.c. plats. and stayed almost until close (almost two hours). and we laughed the entire time. and we told leanne not to take the tinsel down from around the umbrella poles because everyone should be treated to tinsel-faced dinner-mates. people in the restaurant kept looking at us funny. constantine kept getting up in order to make jokes better and i kept falling out of my chair.

we went to his house to watch movies afterwards as i need to avoid packing some more. we watched 'the big lebowski' and mystery science theatre's 'mitchell'. both filled with awesome. oh so good. we both fell off the couch at least twice. i'd never seen either, i've tried seeing the big lebowski several times in the past and it just hasn't happened. and mitchell!!! mst3k is amazing. so goddamn funny. those jokes will last me through the years.

oh awkwardest thing ever! if anyone remembers a certain somewhat arch-nemesis i have, left over from grade ten. a certain brea..alvin's ex-girlfriend. turns out she dates const's roommate jay. and they came home. we haven't spoken in a good few years, and in an awkward way. but it wasn't sooo bad. more funny. and as it would happen, constantine was friends with alvin. of course. oh a bigger city will be good.

except less filled with constantine. and his sweesweetness.

adventure cat climbed into my suitcase. ah i'm going to miss her so very much. all the babies.

they say how you spend your new year's is how you'll spend the rest of your year. but i sure won't be in toronto tonight. i hope it's somewhat fun at least. i really have no set plans, except maybe soiling myself.

ahh i just called jerry's and danielle has already gone to edmonton. i kind of thought it wasn't until tomorrow. sad.

but steven gets back! and i miss her! i don't know how toronto will be without her yelling at me.. ahh.

point being, this machine is sucking away my time. and i sure don't have enough of it anyway.

but oh, happy happy happy new years, with plenty of making out!

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