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2003.09.08 10:30 p.m.

dear jonathan taylor thomas,
i still remember that it's your birthday. it's creepy. but it also makes sense. i've made quite the big big joke of how much i love you, over the past few years. and how i'm going to marry you and all that. and it's pretty funny. but really, i do enjoy you. i mean, on film, and in theory. i think you're slightly annoying, and not the best actor. but quite the cute boy (and we know how i feel about cute boys..). and quite smart and interesting. i think you're funny, and have a silly voice and sparkly eyes. maybe i do believe that you can see someone and feel an affintity with them. and think that you'd like them. and i do think we'd get along, except i'd always say how annoying you are, and try to push you over. but that's just how i am. really. i hope we meet some day and you're as good as you seem, and i hope you find your right place, as it seems like you're looking.
always,
  maredeath

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it was rainy again today. rainy days are the best. especially when it's well-needed. i like the look of damp roads, and rain in front of street lights. late night rain is filling.

jeffmorton and i went to see 'raising victor vargas' tonight at the broadway. if you get a chance, i recommend it. i quite quite enjoyed it, but would be interested to find out what people who aren't quite like me think of it. me and jm generally like the same kinds of things, so it isn't as enlightening. but yes, it was smart and realistic. and i didn't think about it until afterwards, but some of those actors, specifically victor, were really quite outstanding. i mean, the movie had little plot, and what there was of it was fairly standard, but it felt good, it felt honest and unassuming. and naieve. parts were extremely cute, and parts were painful because of their dorkiness. quite good. quite.

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i've read so many monologues in the past while that it's making me sick. i hate them all now. i'm not sure i'd know a good one if i saw it. they all have the same tone and approach. listen, i'm going to tell you my life story/big secret, or listen, this is how it happened/what i saw. i don't know. it's all crap. and all of it that's good isnt' suited for me at all. i don't know what i'm going to do. i need something really good.

i talked to alisin for a bit at the library. that was interesting. we stopped like we were barely going to speak, but we always end up talking far longer, we stood there for some time. yes.

i got my first parking ticket today. i paid it immediately, otherwise i would have forgotten and had to paid forty dollars. ick.

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i miss my neice and nephew, i should see them soon. i wish i didn't work so much. it was 89 or so hours on my last pay cheque. that's about 44 hours a week. brilliant. i've got a little vacation pay i should cash in on. to get my car looked after (just to make sure it's all doing okay), and to go on trips. lots of trips.

i'm still in love with a northern chorus, if you haven't got their songs, you should, though the album is important as a whole. how i wish i could be at the show they're doing right now in canmore with tegan and sara.

it's depressing to know that there's no way to get around not getting enough. sleep.

previously - and then

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all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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