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disclaimer: this is the life and times of meredith r. mistletoe. i'm making a slight attempt to disguise my identity and hide things that i write about and pretend i don't feel things i do. but if you read this and i don't know you read it, then you read it at your own risk. and you should let me know you're reading it... especially because a lot of the time things need clarifying or aren't quite true anymore or etc etc etc.

note: potential employers: please do not judge me on my diaryland. that's lame.

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2002.11.21 10:47 p.m.

i'm not happy. just in case you were wondering. actually, no i am happy. a little too happy sometimes. and then i make myself sick.

i'm working too much. i have no money to spend. i feel guilty at every little money i do spend. i have so much that i want to get for people, and i can't because it's too much. everything's too much. i want a copy of city of lost children, but it's more than five dollars now on ebay. so i won't buy it.

i have no time. and it seems like since i have no time i should have money. but i don't. none that i can spend anyways. and there's so much that i want. seriously, a body shop day takes up the entire day. it's so bad. and i'm getting so frustrated with my manager. she got mad at me serveral times today and guess who had the highest average sale? i did so good. so good. and she kept getting mad over dumb stuff. i miss niki. and the chirstmas staff she's hiring? what? some of them are really good. and some are crazy. seriously.

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andrea got an email from her boyfriend in australia yesterday. the boyfriend that she's supposed to go down there to be with in january. and he said that he was ending there relationship. via the internet!!!!! and he's going backpacking or something for a few days so he's not even reachable by phone. the same boyfriend who sent her super nice flowers for her birthday last week. she was so upset. and it upset me so much too. just because i'm a self-centered bitch who sees how this is exactly what humber college is doing to me at this point. i just want to know though. i just want to go to college.

fuck you to all of you with money. you haven't the foggiest. use it well.

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this woman came in today and she was looking for a cleanser to get stage make-up off, and we started talking about theatre. and it upset me so much. i haven't been in a play since parcel, and that wasn't even acting really, so since 'dentity crisis'. and that is sooooo long. it's hurting me so much. 3/4 of a year. gah.

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i'm going to become an alcoholic.

previously - and then

*oh random entry*

all the diarylands. - 2008.02.21
I move my head. - 2008.01.27
read the other one. - 2008.01.21
was Medium? - 2008-01-17
Or maybe I won't. - 2008.01.15

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